Rickey Lynn

My dearest Lori

My wife, my companion, my dearest friend, is in I.C.U. at Banner Samaritan Hospital, holding on by a thread. My heart has never cried out like it does now. 35 years together is a long time. I can honestly say that in those 35 years I've never given in to the temptation of another. When we said I Do, we both said it for a long future, and not just for a couple of years. I ache so much and so hard. My heart is shattering into pieces and I'm so afraid of being alone for the rest of my life. Marriage is so much more than legalized sex, and I wish people would understand that. It's a bond that is so intimate that most people never even understand the very beginnings of it, much less the depths of it. I pray daily for her to survive, but I fear all is for naught. Yet I don't dare turn my back, because that would be the one time she would need me the most, and I wouldn't be there. I'll try to post more regularly in the future if I can hold together long enough to do it.

posted by Rickey Lynn @ 5:16 PM